It’s been an interesting two weeks. A month ago I figured out that I can only make myself happy. That if I want to feel loved and like myself, I have to be myself. Certainly, getting to the gym three days a week and doing 3-5 classes in that same week has helped mentally and physically. I’ve also picked up a few new clothes, and those made me feel renewed. I’ve even allowed myself to get back into wearing crazy socks with my dress clothes.
I’ve been having a ton of fun burning calories on the Spin bike; having my clothes fit looser; having more energy. It’s been good for the spirt to reground with my yoga practice. Detox has been a part of this practice as well. Adding green tea with ginger back into my diet has helped.
One of the other things I started last November, was to grow out the beard. It looked like crap last year, as I tried to trim it to the same length as my goatee – which I was trimming longer (No.2 on the guide). This year, I trimmed everything down to a No. 1 guide. The beard was still not to my liking. In the past, I would have shaved and questioned myself with “what-if” and looked to others for answers. Instead, I held on until saw my barber, Eliz. She was able to trim everything, beard & Goatee down tight. The beard looked like a three or four day growth – perfect! And while I’m still getting odd looks and occasional comments from folks at work, I just remind myself, that I need to do what I need to feel happy.
Below is the motivation poster that started me thinking about this post. I have been pouring from my soul for far too long, without refilling it.
I want to start giving back. My thought is to contact the cancer center and see if I can volunteer to help other patients. I have already helped a few friends financially and I want to be able to continue with those little acts of kindness. Again, it’s not that I’m not in a good place to do those acts, but they are meaningless if my soul isn’t in the right place. The soul needs to be filled with good deeds first.